welcome "back" andrew!

so andrew was here in ktn today and he's dying.
swt....
her gf is gone
and he's out for movie and drinks later and he came back at 3am..
and he told me a woman open the door for him when he's home.
LOL
he's 95% drunk.

and so i chat with olivia in msn.
lol.the topic was fun.
its all about andrew.
haha!
its fun because he's fun to talk bad things about.

anyway,i'm reli tired now.got to get some rest for the day.

有时候，

人活着，

是需要有种自我催眠的意识的。

只有这样，

我们才能更好地走下去，

这便是成为前进动力的借口。

I LOVE MY LIFE BECAUSE OF YOU


I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU

you were the last good thing about this part of town


but
every love i know,another stitch i sew

我们。。

真的只有好朋友吗？

我知道

你一直以来都是把你当成是我哥

同时

你也知道其实我是爱你的

但是

你不敢面对

我不懂为什么

你知道吗

我真得很爱你，真的真的很爱你

从小我们都是青梅竹马

记得小时候上课的时候

我很爱讲话，但是老师说如果我再讲话就罚我不能下课

但我还是继续讲下去，而你

成了我对讲的同伴

最后，我们俩被罚了

我哭着说对不起

你说没关系

我当时不明白你的意思

只知道你的笑容很温馨，很美

我破涕为笑！

又有一次，我们放学时到对面的公园玩

我很喜欢爬上那高高的石头

你也一样

我们时常坐在一起

仰望着蓝蓝的天空，吹着风，等待着妈妈来载我们

有一天，我从石头上跌了下来

跌得满身都是泥，手还留血了

你马上跳下来，安慰我说不要哭，但又不知该做什么

最后，你还被我妈妈了一顿

因为我说我妈会骂我的，我不要回家

你知道吗？你好笨

你居然告诉我妈说是你推我下去的

那是幼稚园的事了

上了小学

你我都同班

还坐在一起

那时候我很怕没有人跟我坐，哈哈。

从此，我们每天上课都在讲话，甚至被老师叫处罚的都是我们俩。

那时候，我很讨厌些生字。

你为了不让我被老师骂，就向我挑战谁写得最快就赢

你非常了解我那不输人的性格

2002年的某一天

你转校了，却没通知我。我当时不是和你同班，所以是由你的好朋友告诉我的

我问他你读什么学校，他说他不懂。我也没问下去。

这是小学的事。

初中一的时候，我们在一个补习班相逢。

你变了好多，高了，也帅了

上课时，我丢了一张子团给你，问你还记得我吗

你说不懂，脸上还带着怀坏的笑容

过后在学校，我班的一位同学说你和他同校的。还追过她。

我听了，心里莫名其妙的痛了一下。

直到初中3，你问我是不是喜欢他

他是你的好朋友

我说是。

“忘了他吧，你们是不可能的”这是你给我的一句话

我没理会，在那年的长假跟他告白了，用信息。他没回我。

假期里跟朋友出去，遇见了他。他染头发了，我信息他说颜色我不喜欢，不适合他。

听朋友说，他两天过后染灰了黑色。我有点开心。虽然，他没接受我。

终于有一天，我哭着找你。你没问我什么，也没说过任何一句话，只是静静的陪我哭。

其实你早就知道我遇到了什么。你过后说了一句话：“素瑜，答应我不要再让自己受伤害了可以吗？你的眼泪不值得为他而流的。”

上了高一的时候，我听朋友说你和他不再是朋友了。

我们又在同一个补习班。

你坐在我的后面。

我开始明白，我爱上你了。
虽然我没告诉你，但你却知道了。

有一次我问你为什么那么就没来补习了？
你说很忙，为了打球时常不在。
我说我很伤心，你问我为什么
我就说：“因为看不到你呗”
你回我：“cheh”
我问你cheh什么
你说没什么。

直觉告诉我，你在隐瞒着东西。

我过后给你玩了个心理测验

就会知道我在你心目中的地位是什么

你选了天空-喜欢的人

你去笑笑说骗人的啦，测验不是对的

其实你知道吗，我的心被你那句话割伤了

朋友帮我读了塔罗牌，第一次，说你我只能成为世界上最要好的朋友

第二次，他说我们将会是最配的爱人，只是问题在你要不要接受罢了。

我觉得，我们只能成为世界上最要好的朋友。

虽然，我是十万个不愿。



这是我的真人故事。还没有结局。

i hate dat botak chan.
hate him so much
its not like i duno how to do
i need time to think how to solve the next step
and the nest thing i noe
he oredi started to provoke me and geetha
say we are best fren
alwis dreamin
fuck!
damn dat botak chan
issh...
ask me to find another ttn tcher before he stop me
wuah....
for ur information,dis is d first time i did the wrong thing okie
and why does he have to provoke me till so hard infront of evrione???!!!
and some others had done listakes like many times but did'nt ask them to stop the ttn
bullshit!
he craps shit.
urgh.

the friday class student also had the same situtaion.well,my fren kena.
aiks...
duno wad happen to him laa..


so wilson came back to ktn today.
LOL.
dat brat.

songs i listen most recently:

1. MMM... by Laura Izibor


2. Dancing In The Moonlight by Toploader


3. Love Bug by Jonas Brothers


4. Miss Invisible by Marie Digby


5. Beauty In Walking Away by Marie Digby


6. Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade


7. Just One Last Dance by Sarah Connor


8. American Pie by Don McLean


9. I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith


10. Alone by BeeGees


11. Mama Mia by ABBA


12. Dancing Queen by ABBA


13. Viva la Vida by Coldplay


14. This Is Me(Acoustic) by Demi Lovato


15. Just Dance by Lady Gaga


16. 7 things by Miley Cyrus


17. Just Beat It by Michael Jackson


18. Summertime by New Kids On The Block


19. 稻香by Jay Chou[NEW]


20. I Wanna Hold Your Hand by Beatles


21. Sempurna by Andra And The BAckbone[Malay]

P/S:most of the songs were the olides greatest hits

well,i'm seriously obesses with the oldies now...its actually very nice....

在听着Aerosmith的I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

今天是我泪水最多的一天

想起来，真的有好一段时间没哭了。

哼哼！

与几位朋友去看了一公升眼泪电影版

以为我不会再哭

但还是哭了

看了那么多次

感想也随着年龄长大而不一样

我很敬佩当事人-Aya

他的意志力与坚强

不容易放弃生命的精神

还有能够接受事实

面对它而不是逃避

因为她说：

“我不是有病，只是不方便”

都深深地感动了我的心

也给了我不少的启示于鼓励

我今天再次看这套戏

也等于让我充电了一样

在这世界上

人是互相帮助才能生存下来的

朋友，家人

是非常重要

在我们最困难的时候

他们都是我们的救星

倒不如说

其实没有了他们，也不会有今天的我们

我们要珍惜一切，就算没有拥有

做人也不要逃避现实，反而要勇敢地面对

意志力与我们的心和身体是不一样的

当我们的身体生病了，倒下了

我们的心是没有生病的

靠着我们的意志力

我们才能痊愈

所以，身体病了，但心不可以病

如果你们又看到一公升眼泪的书

请务必买下

因为那本书就是Aya生前的日记。

致Aya:

谢谢你!你所作的一切，感动了全世界！
到了生命的关头都不放弃写日记，
让我们很敬佩你！
你的日记已经传到世界的各角落了
你的故事将会在人们的心中时时刻刻的燃烧着
应为你教导我们不要轻易放弃自己的生命！
Aya,谢谢你！
我们都爱你！



其实我的眼泪已经很不争气的流下来了。。。。。

Carmen waiting for her turn to use the toilet.

LMAO

foong yee edited the photo and submited it to susu's frenster.

haha!

in jiayi's car.on the way home when we stucked in a terrible traffic jam.

first day of hari raya break.

so ended up with my frens for a movie[1 litre of tears] and a lunch at mega.

i cried alot today.first was the movie,then my late grandpa.haiz.while yesterday was the story.



LOL.



wilson is coming back tmrw and he oredi asked me out yesterday.LMAO

he just like a kid.

so we decided to go Coffee Street next tuesday.and the rest day of the week,we dunno.....

frens started to work now...

and i think i'm the only who didn't this holiday.

cus my mom sais NO!

gosh...

but i can work in popular bookstore this September...yay!

在听着周杰伦的稻香。

也哭过来了。

是为故事书而哭的啦。。。

用上差不多一天的时间读完了《布拉格红人馆》

是本非常棒的书！

非常值得看！

眼泪也非常值得的流。

从《布拉格红人馆》这故事里，

让我想起了很多很多的回忆。

眼泪

也不知不觉地流下

当时你说：

时间已经把我带走，

把过去带走，

把过去的时间也带走。

忘记我。

忘记我说过的每句话，

忘记我的脸，

忘记我的声音，

忘记我拥抱的温度，

忘记我给你的每一次温暖。

这世间死去的人都被葬在山川之下，

他们会听到属于自己心爱的人的呼吸。

我也会像他们一样沉睡，

在沉睡中祝福你。

等你终于有一天也老了，

再次来到这忘川边的时候，

你会重新见到我微笑的脸。

那时候你才会明白，

往来的一切都是虚空。

虚虚而来，

空空而去，

世间万物，

兼作尘土。

前尘旧事，

就忘记吧！

我问为什么

你说

因为爱是可以体会，

但无法解释的东西

眼泪

再次的流下

我想告诉你

“光游弋而上

小木偶

十二点心慌

玛利亚的壁画里

藏满你一眼望不穿的殇

天堂的泪滴

淌下圣域的光

施舍世人一段粉色忧伤

爱默祷在信纸

信纸弄丢羽毛笔

雪融化在杯底

杯底盛满水晶香

纯度不高的画面感

怎么一直盘旋在彼

就连吹散蔷薇的风向

芬芳

看起来也像是

赞美诗的形状

广场上失恋的女孩

一遍又一遍地唱

Cheri…… Je ne suis pas seue。

Je ne suis pas seue。

Je ne suis pas seue。

亲爱的 我不孤单

我不孤单 我不孤单

…… Désolé,je t'aime。”

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!!

i think i've got the best time ever afta my september test today!haha!

七彩棒棒糖的传说

很久很久以前，有一个公主，从小到大都只能活在城堡里，没有看过城堡外的世界到底是什么样子的。城堡里面有一个糖果师傅的儿子从小就很喜欢公主。弹弓住身边都是王亲贵族，根本从来都没有注意到他。他每天都会从公主的窗户经过，但窗户从来都是关着的。

有一天，窗户打开了，他看见公主靠在床前凝视着花园里那片雨后的玫瑰，公主眼里闪着泪光，那种眼神，很凄美，是哪个年轻人一辈子都不会忘记的。后来公主和一位王子订婚了，那个年轻人似乎解读了公主的眼神，他每天都会做一根七种颜色的棒棒糖给公主。

在公主嫁给王子，也就是离开这座城堡的前一天，他对着那个年轻人露除了从来都没在她脸上出现过的灿烂笑容。后来，在那位公主嫁到另一个国家的第一天，就从一座种满玫瑰的山上跳了下去。。。。而后来，哪个年轻人一直在做七彩棒棒糖。

不知道是否因为那个公主的原故，每个吃过七彩棒棒糖的人都会得到幸运。其实，公主眼神里的是孤独，世纪末，是对城堡外的世界的希望。他就像城堡里的玫瑰一样，看着的指示墙上的一角天空。她心里一直等着一位属于她的王子，不一定是王亲贵族，而是可以让她深爱着的，带她离开这个牢笼，到城堡外的世界生活的王子。而那位年轻人做七彩棒棒糖的目的是要告诉公主，外面的世界是七彩的，是美丽的，是开心的。公主明白，她的那位王子已经出现了，虽然从没说过一句话，但她感觉到，他们之间的距离是那么得近，那么的近。。。

Currently listening to:American Pie by Don McLean
Mood:kinda sha-la-la-la-la


oh i love the song American Pie so so much since i was standard 5.i missed the song so so much!

Great News- Vaneesa gave birth to her lovely daughter today at the Specialist hosp.Congratz Vaneesa!

i can't remember what class we atually had today in school cus we are totally free.well,let me think...
okie!remembered!2 period of Physics and 2 periods of Account only.
and the rest of the time,we were "bookworms" who glued our head to the novel and was totally oblivious on whats happening around untill the form 1 juniors next door came in and say something which i only caught a couple of word 'fight','the stupid motherfucker malay girl' and 'suicide'.
and those words actually won our attention and we the only girls[only chinese] went to next class.well,obviously i joined the "exodus".
so it ended up we[included 2 librarian and i'm one of them and a prefect] are fighting with the malay girls to protect our juniors.

LOL

it ended up with some stupid shouting "teacher came dy!teacher came dy!"

so the "exodus" went back to class and continue to glue our head back into those attracting novels when our account teacher pop in and say:"eh 4C,jangan buat bising.diam sikit.Datin Ju[our principal+our ex-BM teacher] dah marah.dia cakap 4C sangat bising tapi saya kata buakn 4C,form 1 buat bising.tapi dia cakap juga kelas kamu.jadi saya tak boleh cover up kelas kamu.so jangan buat bising ya!"

LOL

anyway,we did quite afterall.huh,i'm so sleepy today,even my friens ask me when i step into the class:"suyi,not yet wake up ke?"

issh!that fucker laa!tak tau siapa dia.he's a KL boy.he called me this morning at 3.02!!!why on earth he's calling me that time!and i am too stupid enough to hang up the call afta saying 'hello?'...i shud have scold him like shit!isshh!

i cant check the number back becus my phone got something wrong which i can't check any missed/receive called number!damn my hp!

urgh.dun wanna talk about that.i'm so so happy today.no reason why.wheeee!

the movie-Money No Enough 2

Jiayi asked me to take it down,so i did.its when we step out from our ttn place and its around 7.20pm.thunder still striking.
[Reflection Rays]
during physics ttn.jasher says he can't see the blue line,so teacher turn off the light and the room was in a total darkness.

that shadow aint ghost.its our ttn teacher.

omg!i've loose in the gambling of add maths paper and i have to treat them 5 drinks from STARBUCKS!that's shite!

aiks.i carelessly lost 13 marks to the paper!issh...its so so annoying thinking back the paper.

this time,i'm not the highest mark for the english paper.diane won me.nvm,its okie because i've alwis been the highest one in the class.haha!

wow!abhi actually did attend to school today.

erm,actually i tak nampak her today so i thought she skipped the school...

but it turn out she went..

so embarassing laa...

watches the movie Money Not Enough 2.its a Singaporean movie.

so touching...evryone shud really watch it since theres this kenaikan harga in the whole world...

right timing they came out the 2nd season this year.

oh no!i baru teringat i left wei shan's gossip girl in my physics ttn place!omg!

i've gotta call tcher now....

hope she don't know....

arh!

oh no!i've just lost 10 marks to my add maths!(ass maths is what abhi called)
damn it!
talk about today's test.its fun(because we were cheating+chating+playing around)and it sucks(cus the chemistry is fucking hard)and its heart breaking(cus i've lost 10 marks in my add maths paper and i'm gambling with other frens for the add maths mark!)

lets not talk about that.
ok,so i've found this video which is super funny and super lame.its JB and Demi.so watch it guys. and sorry i din upload into my blog because i can't download it.so click this link and watch it.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqJNPQkFEs0thanks fer watching!^^

tomorrow is the Mc D's stuff training day.so susu and my other frens are goin.

P/S:susu is working at the ice-cream section,so we have to go and visit her often!Abhi!u will be the first person i'll ajak along!remember to bring along a big bowl!

The Diva-Demi Lovato

you've got to love the Jonas Brothers a.k.a JB and Demi Lovato(starring in the Camp Rock as Mitchie if you guys don't know)

oh god!they are so so COOL.Demi is like the diva of our age[16],she's our age.

and JB,ok,thats a BIG undenied.



anyone of you watched Camp Rock????

it really rocks and you can't missed it.well,i did missed it on the premiere because my parents cutted off the Disney Channel.But i downloaded it so.....HAHAHAHA!



Demi's new album debut is really nice.she's got a so ah-mazing voice and look.=]

her new song "Get Back" is really nice.go get it buddy!

and lastly,this is our magician.she rocks when she's casting the spells.wrong formula also can..haha!

our drama team
from left:our stepbrother,stepfather,stepbrother

our "cinderella",but it turn out to be a prince.

when our prince blew a kiss to our princess lala.

our stepfather.

"cinderella" and his family.

"cinderella" and his wife princess lala.

kevin tay,kevin goh,kevin young.

oh god!i keliru with this 3.

orz

Oh god!
tomorrow is my September test!
and i am still sitting infront of my Computer updating my stuff!
unbelievable!

we've got 6 subjects to sit for and i've not even study one of them!
damn.
wish me luck guys.
haiz.

feeling the music beats thorugh my heart

grabing me away from that fucking mind

shaking my stress away like theres no one

and dancing like there is no tomorrow

happy mooncake festival!

and happy birthday to daniel and my cousin!

just back from the beach

on my hand is a The Body Shop paper bag with some candles inside and a I/C card of edrene

yea.she left it on the sand when one of the girls i don't know found it and gave me.

l0ls.

so the beach was great and everthing was just fine enough.

big clap people!

oh,and i met many frens there from my from every school.XD

i love the music so much!

there're a group of people who dance shuffle with the great music playing from the cars.

and we actually dance along too!haha!not shuffle laa..we dance on down the sand there.

it is fun!

ok,i'm off ter sleep now.i think i'm going to skip the school tmrw.haha!

my computer is back and i am NOT HAPPY about it.
fuck ya!
i don't care if i'm rude!
i don't care if people call me insane!
i don't care about everything now!
i just want my things back to normal!

but
it will never be back.
FOREVER!!!
fucking bullshit!
i hate this fucking reformat or wadever it is!
i hate to hear fucking shit things like i'm sorry but it couldn't be help!
this is like so fucking lame and i'm screwed becus of this fucking shit things!

asshole!

i'm in a so fucking damn bad mood now
and i hated my tears rolling like shit
i hate to hear those damn blaming sound
and i hate him like hell!

how i wish someone could take a hammer and run to me and hit and wake me up and say loud and clear
"hey!wake up!everthings isn't true!its still the same!"

but it will never be.